I feel more sensitive today, more sensitive to physical pain, emotional pain. I know it's just the uterus talking, but I can't help it. Sometimes I wish I could be a brick wall, unaffected by hormones, words, actions, strong and stable.

I haven't written here for about 3 months now simply because I've been too busy and didn't feel the need to. I am not saying that today I feel as though I need to vent, I am simply in a lot of pain and cannot concentrate on never-ending amount of work I need to do. My uterus feels as though its on fire, as if someone is stabing needles into it, wringing it out like a towel. I've never been in so much painl; it is unbearable. The only person who would be able to take my mind off the pain is sleeping right now.

Amit, thank you for everything you have done for me. When I first saw you walk into advanced functions, I was excited to have a class with Ufus. You were that random quiet kid I wanted to befriend. After talking to you, I came to realize you were kind, and gentle. Within a few months, I became attached to you. You had this effect on me and all I wanted to do was get to know you better, and hope to God you would want to one day spend time with me.

Of course I wasn't always happy during that time. I felt hopeless, lost and confused. I relied on others for advice, while some said I should give up, others told me to keep my head up high. I never thought this would ever happen. I never thought you would reciprocate the feelings, but I am glad you did.

The last 5 months (well, 4.75 months) have been amazing. I have never felt this way about anyone before. You make me want to be a better person. Although we are upset at times, it is only expected. I love you, Amit. Thank you fo everything you have done for me.




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On another note, people have begun to irritate me. There are some people I just cannot stand.



- Katherine