I wonder whether I'm going to start writing a happy post everyday now.
I cannot describe how I feel. I cannot stop smiling. :)

I missed being held and to be held by him is just a dream come true. No matter how cold he may seem, he is sweet. He may not know how to express himself, but he sure knows how to make me happy.

Brendon, I don't know whether you will read this or not, but I can tell you I am happy. There is not a doubt in my mind, I am happy.

On a side note, WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED IN DEXTER!? BURYING KIDS IN CEMENT, WTF?!

Relief

I could finally say that I am relieved. For once in my life, I am happy where I am.
I never expected things to turn out the way they did, but who's complaining?
This is better than I expected, I am on cloud 9.
Thank you.

I cried myself to sleep again.

foxtrot, uniforn, charlie, kilo.

Well what can I say?
There's not much to say honestly.
Sometimes I feel like I should just give up. Live life without worrying so much, ya know? But that's impossible, especially for me.
According to a certain someone, I will worry a lot my whole life. That is always what I wanted to hear.
How do some people go on living without worrying?!

On another note, I haven't been the happiest camper lately. A certain someone has been driving me mad and there's nothing I could so about it. I'd like to think that I am strong but I am slowly cracking. I'm pretty sure I could handle this on my own though, no need to get anyone involved. Plus, the people that know where I am have been helping me as much as they can, but it's just not working.

Sometimes I wonder: is there something wrong with me? I mean, I know I'm not the smartest girl out there, I'm not the prettiest and I'm definitely not the funniest or nicest. What the hell do I have going on for me? Nothing, absolutely nothing.

Maybe my violin teacher was right, I do have low self esteem. FUCK!