Well exams are finally over, and 2nd semester is quickly approaching.

I only write in my blog when I am feeling emotional and cannot express how I feel to any particular person. A few people have this link, however I have no idea whether they read this blog or not. If you are reading this now, hi?

I am very tense, uneasy, worried. I cannot help but feel as though I did something to upset you. I know this may be silly, but usually you are a bit more chatty and if you are quiet, you are at least closer to me. Yesterday, you seemed quite distant for some time... I couldn't bring myself to tell you exactly why I was asking you if you were alright. Usually, you hold me but yesterday, things were different. I am not saying that we must always hold eachother, don't get me wrong. I found it very strange. Sometimes I ask myself whether you truly wanted to be in a relationship or whether you're happy in this relationship because all I want is for you to be happy. Maybe I'm just over-thinking things, maybe I should just relax but to do so, I need you to tell me how you're feeling. I need you to tell me in person, not just on messenger. You are quite different on msn and in person. On msn, you say things you normally don't say in person...


Goddamn Michelle, getting in my head with her "everything a guy says is a lie". !@#$%!@#$%^&^%$#@

I know you are a sweet and kind person, probably the sweetest person I know. I know you wouldn't say those things is they weren't true, but I have also realized you would never say those things if we weren't in a relationship. We would have never been together if you didn't come over that day. We probably wouldn't have been together if I didn't say anything.

I am really happy I am with you but I don't want you to be unhappy. Seeing you puts a smile upon my face. If I ever do anything that bothers you, tell me. I might be a little upset but I'd rather know about it so I can work on it.



Holy shit, what a long post.