I need some Vitamin D

I haven't blogged in a while, and I apologize.
You see, I didn't need to blog. I didn't need to get something off my chest.

I don't know what to do anymore...
I just want to give up.
I'm sure that would be the wise thing to do.
I mean, why should I be upset over one person when there are so many other people out there?

I can't seem to get him off my mind.
I haven't felt this way in years.
I'm happy when I'm around him, I really am.
Knowing he will never have any feelings for me kills me.
Whenever I've liked someone, they've always liked me back.
I don't know why, but it always turned out that way.
This is new to me and I don't know what to do.
Some people tell me to play hard to get, but I don't want to play any games.

I know you might be reading this Brendon.
I'm not always this upset, trust me.
Something you said yesterday really got to me and I don't even know why.
I'm sorry, I should have listened to you.
I'm on the verge of tears...